Who are you?

It’s ok to be you. It’s ok to be different, and feel differently. There is no “normal”. The more we try to fight our own nature to fit in, or to conform to someone else’s idea of how/who we should be, the more damaged we become.

Today, I saw this posted on a friend’s timeline on Facebook:

I was told today that I can only know myself through someone else, I guess I’ll never know who the F$#?k I am.

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Marijuana, Hemp & CBD.

For thousands of years, humans and animals alike have been using plants to help them heal. We still do. That is why we have Lavender baby bath, Chamomile Tea, Aloe in our lotions, and health food stores.

Believe it or not, we have also been using marijuana, hemp, and it’s derivatives in the US, up until about 70 yrs ago, with no issues whatsoever. Doctors were prescribing it for hundreds of years.

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When you just…can’t.

I’ve been waiting for Spring. I live in New England. Right now, we are having “Second Autumn”. It’s like real Autumn, only it comes after Spring. It’s cold damp, and rainy. It is a pain inducing nightmare.

I have calls to make, emails to write, I have to go out later, and I just want to curl up in a ball, on the couch, with my dog, and a blanket.

I can’t keep my brain focused, even with my meds properly ingested this morning, and I just don’t care.

Any “normal” person would be complaining of a 8 on their pain scale, and would probably want to die. I am not normal. If the pain scale went from 1-20, instead of 1-10, I’d probably be at a 13.

I’m only sitting here writing this, to keep going. To make it through the day. To resist the urge to lie down. I really do have to go out later, it is not optional.

The one bright spot, is that something I ordered came today. I can’t tell you what it is just yet, but keep watching for updates. This is something I hope to be able to share with you all in the next few days.

Till then, carry on my warrior friends, better days are coming. ❤ J

Kratom: Wonder Leaf, or Deadly Crutch? A Review of “A Leaf of Faith”.

In “A Leaf of Faith”, Chris, who struggles with chronic pain, and addiction on a daily basis, delves into the Kratom debate.  His interviews with doctors, scientists, and politicians, on both sides of the debate, are thought provoking,

I have a terrible head cold, so last night, I was scrolling through Netflix, and found a documentary with an interesting name: “A Leaf of Faith”. I had no idea what it was about, it is a new release, and I saw the word “Kratom” in the description. Discussions about the use of Kratom have been popping up all over, and when something like this comes along, I have to know more.  Continue reading “Kratom: Wonder Leaf, or Deadly Crutch? A Review of “A Leaf of Faith”.”

Chronic {Invisible} Illness – How to cope with intolerance; and what “well” people should know.

“How to deal with assholes the behavior of others when we can barely function, is a life skill we’ve had to learn the hard way.”

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Faith, Hope, and Complacency.

“Let me tell you something my friend. Hope is a dangerous thing. Hope can drive a man insane.“ – (Red) The Shawshank Redemption.

Hey everyone,  I guess it’s been awhile. To be honest, I just haven’t felt inspired enough, or angry enough to crank out a post. My apologies, but, as you know, such is the life of a person with a chronic illness…

Let’s just call it what it is: CHRONIC LYME DISEASE.

Yes, it does exist, and no matter what you are told, it’s NOT all in your head.

I was reminded of this, quite abruptly, while watching “The Bleeding Edge” on Netflix. Follow the link, and read the article. If you have any kind of man made parts in your body, brace yourself. Then, come back, and read my rant.

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Our Drugs – Part 1 – SSRI’s: Prozac®, et al.

Follow me back in time…

Five years ago, while seeking only the 2nd opinion about my illness, I went to an MD, who told me that all of my symptoms were psychosomatic. In his opinion, my symptoms were the result of increased stress, and depression.

(This assumption, by many a health care professional, may in fact, be doing more harm than good.)

So…

He wrote me a prescription for Prozac®. Continue reading “Our Drugs – Part 1 – SSRI’s: Prozac®, et al.”