Who are you?

It’s ok to be you. It’s ok to be different, and feel differently. There is no “normal”. The more we try to fight our own nature to fit in, or to conform to someone else’s idea of how/who we should be, the more damaged we become.

Today, I saw this posted on a friend’s timeline on Facebook:

I was told today that I can only know myself through someone else, I guess I’ll never know who the F$#?k I am.

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My CBD Experience. (So Far)

Lately I have been going on a lot about CBD products, and their benefits. I have tried quite a few, and have found what I think is going to be my go-to brand. I will share that with you in a moment.

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Kratom: Wonder Leaf, or Deadly Crutch? A Review of “A Leaf of Faith”.

In “A Leaf of Faith”, Chris, who struggles with chronic pain, and addiction on a daily basis, delves into the Kratom debate.  His interviews with doctors, scientists, and politicians, on both sides of the debate, are thought provoking,

I have a terrible head cold, so last night, I was scrolling through Netflix, and found a documentary with an interesting name: “A Leaf of Faith”. I had no idea what it was about, it is a new release, and I saw the word “Kratom” in the description. Discussions about the use of Kratom have been popping up all over, and when something like this comes along, I have to know more.  Continue reading “Kratom: Wonder Leaf, or Deadly Crutch? A Review of “A Leaf of Faith”.”

Our Drugs – Part 1 – SSRI’s: Prozac®, et al.

Follow me back in time…

Five years ago, while seeking only the 2nd opinion about my illness, I went to an MD, who told me that all of my symptoms were psychosomatic. In his opinion, my symptoms were the result of increased stress, and depression.

(This assumption, by many a health care professional, may in fact, be doing more harm than good.)


He wrote me a prescription for Prozac®. Continue reading “Our Drugs – Part 1 – SSRI’s: Prozac®, et al.”

CBD: To Vape, or not to Vape.

With the opioid crisis in full swing, and chronic pain sufferers looking for alternative pain relief, many have turned to medical marijuana, and Cannabidiol (CBD) to ease their pain. We all know what marijuana is. It is a plant which contains Tetrahydrocannabinol (THC), and CBD. The chemical compound of THC is the psychoactive component, and gives users the “high”. CBD on the other hand, stands out, because it is both non-psychoactive and displays a broad range of potential medical applications. These properties make it especially attractive as a therapeutic agent.


I am no expert, and although I do a lot of researching online about things, I have a hard time sifting through too much technical jargon, and then trying to convey it to others. I like to keep it simple, and let the reader follow pertinent links such as this:

CBD and the Brain

There is also some discussion as to which CBD should be used, as it can be produced from a marijuana plant, or the hemp plant. More info here:

Hemp vs Marijuana CBD

Being a person who is very sensitive to medications, and really needing to find an alternative pain reliever, I have thought about obtaining my medical marijuana card, but I really don’t want so smoke it, or have the psychoactive effect. (I can’t stand the smell either.) The cost is also prohibitive for me at this time.

The alternative? CBD oil. Be advised: There is much discussion as to whether CBD oil is legal or not, and in which states. You will find the definitions, and legal mumbo-jumbo in this article:

DEA: CBD oil is NOT legal in all 50 States.(Via Hightimes)wsi-imageoptim-can-cbd-help-fibromyalgia-cbd-for-chronic-pain-www.endoca.com_

The choice is yours, as to whether or not CBD is something you want to try. I have already made my decision, and purchase.

According to my research, vaping CBD oil is much better than taking it internally by mouth.

CBD oil can be ordered in a variety of strengths, (mgs.) and flavors (or no flavor). You should also watch the ingredients. Propylene Glycol may be added to the oil to create a certain viscosity, and ease of wicking. I have no indication that inhaling PG is safe. You can find all natural, and vegan alternatives, such as vegetable glycerine in most products. Check the labels.

The next thing is to decide where to buy, and how to dose the CBD. Just so you know, there are a zillion sites online where you can buy vape oils, and products. Choose wisely, and read reviews.

Here is a good site to find reviews of sellers.

I started small, and with limited funds. I ordered a small “vape pen”, that is rechargeable via USB. It has a small refillable tank, and activates upon the draw, or “puff”. ($24.99)

I also purchased a 30ml bottle of 200mg CBD vape oil. ($49.00)


*Note: You will also need a vape syringe, especially if you buy a pen. The fill hole is very small, and this stuff is too expensive to watch it drip down the side of your pen. Lick it off…don’t waste it.! LOL Amazon has them, and any local vape shop will too.

As this is my first attempt at vaping, I didn’t want to spend too much, in case it didn’t have the desired effect. I am hoping that it will help with pain, and sleep.

The site I used is here: Pure CBD Vapors

They have a lot of good information on dosing, a wide variety of products, including CBD for pets, and have a 5 star rating on the page I linked above.

Here is their Beginners Guide.

Once you have done your research, it’s all up to you. Who to order from, what your needs are, and how much you want to spend. (or NOT)

Look around. Many shops sell products from another vendor, and mark up the prices. It’s nice to be able to order everything in one place, but if money is an issue, you can look for deals direct from the manufacturers.

*Note: If you get to checkout, and see a line for a coupon code, open a new window, and search for the codes. I was able to use one in my checkout, and saved $6.41. 🙂

Ok, moving on…

I received my vape pen, and oil in a timely fashion, and have been using it for two days. My oil is not flavored, so there is no taste or odor. Using the formula for dosing, I would need 50-60 puffs per day, but really don’t keep count. I take a puff or two, for a total of 4-5 per hour. In a 12 hour period, that is 48-60 puffs, and get’s me to the desired dosage, of around 18 mg.

After only two days, I cannot claim any miraculous results, but I will say that I feel as though I am more relaxed, and an “edge” has been smoothed. Time will tell how this affects my pain scale. I’ll keep you posted.

From what I have heard, CBD has helped many people, with a wide variety of ailments. Remember, that any aid, or remedy, may work for one person, and not another. You should always check with your physician before using any new product, to be sure you can use it safely with your current medications, if any.

Happy Vaping!